camp was disappointing tis week..we were not selected for goh?y? simple reason..wen the ndp trainer called my fi he was bz watchin his damn movie at home!!!!!gundu tol la...so the trainer called d other 2 squads..tis means marching contingent..dam..i wanted to hold dat gun wit my white long sleeve shirt..so cool..

a malay fi..took our squad for a day on wed..n he made us do intervals of 200m n 400m..i was sooo excited..caux i juz love sprinting..half way thru my 200m..my legs gave up on me...i cud barely walk.. n wen i reported to d mo..medical office..he said i suffer from a splinted shin..both legs..he said i used to much of it..n nvr let thm rest..n that d muscles are super weak rite now...wen to a physician he SAID..my muscles are all torn up..like damn...at age 23? all those years of being so active...athletics..soccer..skipping..muay thai..have caught up to me..docs say..no cold drinks..for u boy..only warm plain water..too la pade dulu orng da kater..minum air putih..sampai water bottle dibelikn..degil kan..hahhhaahaahaha...

anyway ns..does change u a bit..maturity comes in d game..u tend to have time to think for urself n wad u really wan in life..u take other peeps experiences n learn from thm....i still do have trust issues..though.i juz cant seem to trust a girl,,caux so far none have proved me wrong..tat is of course minus my mum,sis,,n my best "girl fren" nysha..who is still pissed at me.haixx...

anyhow..goin to urut n train for ippt on mon.my fi has high hopes of me..d onli thing holding me back is my 2.4